Please allow me to remember this moment.
I might need to come back again and remind myself the feelings and emotion of today.
I have been confused about why I need to make animation for quite sometime.
To be honest, I hate doing commercial work most of the time. It's not inspiring in many aspects.
( Buy this smartphone! Download this app now! blah blah blah......)
Those commercials and the products are not really benefit to humanity in a long term.
I want to work on something that actually can bring an impact, or be meaningful to someone.
I believe the mass media has the power to bring positive influence to the public. But what do the public want to see? (Violence and sex, violence and sex, yeah I know.)
But I believe there must be something else that appeals to humans. Something delicate and loving. But I don't know what that is.
I got lost in finding the everyone-will-love-it elements. So I didn't know how to make films.
Around a month ago, my friend Emely invited her friends to make birthday cards to her. Emely's mom passed away last year, this was the first birthday that her mom was absent and she needs to be supported.
I was thinking what I could do for her. Then suddenly the idea came to me,
why not making a 360 degree film for her? I always want to use 360 degree film to tell stories.
And it seems perfect! 360 degree films are all about experience in a personal way, I want my friend to feel supported and being loved by the people who care for her. The 360 degree thing might work!
So in just one month, I contact Emely's sister Enid, to help me record down their old family VHS videos. Enid recorded a lot of them, and they were just so perfect ( I could watch these footage and cried without doing any editing. )
I didn't have a solid storyboard, I just made things on the fly, because there wasn't much time.
I started learning C4D two months ago, and learned how to render out 360 degree image (that took a while!) So it's like problem solving throughout the whole production.
And the file crashed and destroyed last week, I had to remake everything again. I thought I couldn't finished it on time.
The film is kind of experimental, but I tried to put it together.
Today I finished the film, and I sent it to Emely.
She said she needed to watched it twice, because the first time her tears blur out everything. (she said they were good tears ><)
I was worried if this project was a bad idea, because I didn't want to upset her, that is totally the opposite of the reason why I made the film. Thank goodness she likes it ><
Therefore, I would like to mark down today. I made a film, not for me, not for the generic public, but for a person I care for. This means a lot to me. And this helps me bring back the passion to make films. Maybe the missing key I was looking for is in here, and I need to go deeper.
Thank you Emely!